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Agree. Country music was not nice to me after my divorce. lol
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Neither is listening to top 40 groups like TLC or Madonna. I damn near hung myself listening to her song "take a bow". I'm glad that I will never go there in my mind ever again. It was the music that fueling those thoughts. Pretty scary when you realize that. Heavy metal was honestly the cure to that. And they say heavy metal music is dangerous - PFFFFTT
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I was listening to Metallica on the treadmill at the gym last night. That could get dangerous. lol
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since this started [ month and a half ago ] i have NOT listened to any music [ just not interested ] and l,d have AC/DC blasting while i drive but nothing now [ to many thoughts going thru my mind ]
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Well that's good. Ain't nothing wrong with a little radio silence once in a while.
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Don't think small or weak of me. but after watching Suzy die no matter how peaceful ( which I should not have done ) the Love of my life for the last 30 years. It really effected me to the point were I just can't deal with it. I go into a cold sweat .my heart pounds and I start crying ( like I am now ) it just paralyzes me. I.m just not ready/prepared yet to deal with it. I.ve only been back to the house once since the 17th and that was to give my sister the cats. I just break down into hysterics crying. I should be stronger than this but I.m not
that above is the text l sent the family [ both sides ] they are hounding me to get all the prep done [ cremation - wake - burial ] yes they should be helping me but instead are pushing me [ l see their point of view - Big strong 6ft 250lb man should be able to get this done ] but l cant and just need some time
Grief is a funny thing
that above is the text l sent the family [ both sides ] they are hounding me to get all the prep done [ cremation - wake - burial ] yes they should be helping me but instead are pushing me [ l see their point of view - Big strong 6ft 250lb man should be able to get this done ] but l cant and just need some time
Grief is a funny thing
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Emotions are not just for the small and weak. What you're feeling is absolutely normal, and dammit, that family should be there for you every second, knowing the pain you are going thru. They should know you're an emotion wreck and they should WANT to help. That makes me angry. Family is family no matter what and we should always be there for them. Sorry Dean.
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there is no chance of any of us thinking you small or weak. You've been through an extremely remorseful emotional gauntlet, for which there is no relief except for time and rest - if you weren't emotional and grieving then we'd be worried. The memories you have are genuine, an what you are going through now is natural - doesn't make it any easier, but it does vindicate that you did everything you could. It was her time, and she is at peace - while unimaginably difficult that will ultimately bring you some comfort. You have nothing - nothing - to feel ashamed or negligent about, and day by day it will get better. Celebrate the good times and cherish the memories - sounds like you have a lot of them
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No worries Deano. Take your time to grieve and process. The others are experiencing it too, and are just wanting it to be over, hence why they are pushing....
Ask for the help if needed, if not or they don't want to help then take as much time as it needs on your side. But I will say getting through it all does take time, but the sooner the stuff is all taken care of the quicker the healing comes too. Letting go is tough and moving through these things is part of the process to complete that cycle. Thoughts and prayers are with you brother.
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Ask for the help if needed, if not or they don't want to help then take as much time as it needs on your side. But I will say getting through it all does take time, but the sooner the stuff is all taken care of the quicker the healing comes too. Letting go is tough and moving through these things is part of the process to complete that cycle. Thoughts and prayers are with you brother.
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You're human Dean. It's ok to cry. It's all part of the healing process. I was one of the toughest guys in hockey throughout the years and at the race track and I cried like baby when I lost my mom and when I caught my ex fiance in bed with a cop. Tough guys cry too, absolutely.. It don't make you weak. Now if you cry because someone said something mean to you then that's a different story, lol. You sure learn who your real friends and family are in a time of need I tell ya. Hang in there buddy. 💪
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Yep. Take your time.
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Dean you may not believe it possible but I understand exactly what you're going through. Cancer took my wife on November 4th 2017. I lived with the ever increasing pent up frustration and sorrow of knowing that day was coming for two years, and there was absolutely nothing I could do. Helpless. Powerless to stop it. Not sure which was worse, that or standing beside her grave with a shovel in my hands. Neither is an experience I will ever repeat.
Afterwards I was just wrecked for about a year, didn't work and didn't want to. Wandered from one empty room to the next, lost. I won't go on about all that, but I will say it took about three years before I got my head on semi straight again. Unfortunately that is another aspect of it one must deal with. Not only are they gone, which is bad enough, but the life you built with them is gone too. Hopes, dreams, plans, all of it..... gone. Only the love remains, and it is now a painful thing.
One must accept that such things change a man, he is no longer who he was. He simply can not be that man, it is not possible. Trying to find peace with a different and unwanted version of yourself is not easy, but a semblance of peace will come eventually. The hard part is having to endure the interim.
I won't say the usual cliches, I will only say I understand and if you need a friend to talk to DM me for my number.
Afterwards I was just wrecked for about a year, didn't work and didn't want to. Wandered from one empty room to the next, lost. I won't go on about all that, but I will say it took about three years before I got my head on semi straight again. Unfortunately that is another aspect of it one must deal with. Not only are they gone, which is bad enough, but the life you built with them is gone too. Hopes, dreams, plans, all of it..... gone. Only the love remains, and it is now a painful thing.
One must accept that such things change a man, he is no longer who he was. He simply can not be that man, it is not possible. Trying to find peace with a different and unwanted version of yourself is not easy, but a semblance of peace will come eventually. The hard part is having to endure the interim.
I won't say the usual cliches, I will only say I understand and if you need a friend to talk to DM me for my number.
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